Love and Value

Love, Light, Peace, Beauty, Aspiration, Faith, Courage, - - -

The other day V asked if I had loved MDg very much. I said yes, and elaborated - why. 

It wasn't just that the relationship made it natural and a matter of course. It was also that MDg was a fantastic, unbelievably fabulous person. 

But I knew even then - and pondered about it later - that the question was more than usually loaded, since no one should really question loving someone so close. The question implied some sort of irregularity, credited to that love, and it was about not loving everyone else equally. I knew V was innocent in all this - a word usually tells where the source of the conversation or a question is and who has met whom and what conversation has gone on between whom that one is not being told about - and V is very young, probably unaware of being used to others' ends. 

It reminded me, later when thinking over the whole thing, of when we had just shifted to Germany and a colleague took us to visit Haigerloch, the location of the (incomplete) German atom bomb, and obviously he (and the few other Germans we later told about having visited the place) was very proud of the achievement - which also led to how bitterly they resented the defeat and the consequent loss of pride, making us lead to the question of if they really did come to grips with having had a wrong philosophy in the first place or did they still identify with the lost leaders. 

During the course of the afternoon he explained that X (Fermi, most likely I forget the exact name - it was a few years ago), a scientist who should have helped Germany, refused to do so "because he was a friend of Einstein and so he was upset about Einstein having to leave Germany". 

At that point it was clear that more than a conversation with new acquaintances would be needed to point out the obvious - if indeed it was possible for him or others like him to see the point at all, which is only possible if they do not see it. In all likelihood they might be unwilling to see it at all since the consequence is the loss of pride on recognition of the faults - the horrors - on their side. The truly innocent might be able to withstand such a reversal but those who choose otherwise cannot be reversed. In other words it is only possible to wake up those that are asleep, not those who are pretending to be so. 

V is innocent, being too young and uninvolved in the whole story except being a link with those that are perpetuating a similar moral fraud in case of MDg - and v knows little or nothing about the whole story. But those behind know better and are guilty of a similar fraud morally. 

What can I say about MDg? Light, Love, Purity, Beauty, and far more - Aspiration far more than ambition, Achievement far more than pride, an active and living Faith in ultimate Divine far more than any rigid adherence to formal religion, always willingness to grow by giving up the accumulated and progress, Peace of mind and heart that was alive around us and we couldn't have lived without, a natural Felicity and a tremendous capacity for Joy even in greatest of adversities, Health and Strength that we inherited and that tided us over, a Wideness of mind and heart and inner being, a capacity to see inner truth irrespective of prevalent prejudices, - - - - - - - 

Those who have known MDg fall in two groups, dazzled and fallen in love or burning with hatred due to jealousy. Those who have not had the privilege probably fall into the mass of sceptics, mostly. Today is the age of cynicism and of equalising - and very often that equalising goes in the wrong direction of equal sympathy for victim and perpetrator, and then naturally further into forgetting the victim and befriending the perpetrator, or the extreme of blaming the victim - all very convenient since the victim is mostly weak and often dead, and the perpetrator is not only mostly alive but often powerful in some way or another, and more. That it is blind injustice to do so deters few. 

Justice presupposes not only perception but also integrity, and few have those qualities - or the courage required to hold onto, or to admit a mistake for that matter. MDg had all of those - Integrity and Courage, and Perception only missing a point, that of truly evil, and therefore an unwillingness to fight it or stay away which might save one when faced with it. Allies acquired some of those late and did not adhere even thereafter when faced with proof, and most people are either bored with Holocaust or some even outright deny it, whether in ignorance or innocence or otherwise. It is tempting after all to do so and to hold one's own peace, and very convenient to forget victims, and even forge alliances with perpetrators. Haven't great institutions been founded on such convenient forgetting and forgiving? 

But a necessary prerequisite of the exercise of the great virtue of forgiving is that a perpetrator asks for it with full realisation and admission and acknowledgement of all that needs to be forgiven - a true repentance, of heart to begin with, and the whole being that erred. Any other form of forgiveness can only be either Injustice or bequest of Divine - not even the self proclaimed agencies of Divine - and when the victim is no longer around to forgive the perpetrator, the forgiveness can only be a matter between the perpetrator and the Divine. Others usually choose what is convenient. A few are unable to forget those drops of Light, Beauty, Peace, Purity, Aspiration, Faith, Joy, Courage, Strength, Love, Wisdom, - - - all that MDg was. 

If one is punished, hounded, attacked over and over, all for loving such a one - it matters little what they gossip behind one's back. It only matters that one does not sink into the morass of believing that all is equally mud or equally good, and retains a memory of that person that MDg was.

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